David Brainerd, the young missionary to the American Indians from 250 years ago, struggled painfully and valiantly with the loss of joy. His journal is still encouraging people today.
Sunday, December 16, 1744. “Was so overwhelmed with dejection that I knew not how to live: I longed for death exceedingly: My soul was ‘sunk in deep waters,’ and ‘the floods’ were ready to ‘drown me’: I was so much oppressed that my soul was in a kind of horror.”
But he never stopped fighting the fight. And again and again the joy was restored for his short life of 29 years.
April 17, 1747. “O I longer to fill the remaining moments all for God! Though my body was so feeble, and wearied with preaching and much private conversation, yet I wanted to sit up all night to do something for God. To God the giver of these refreshments, be glory forever and ever; Amen.”
February 21, 1746. “My soul was refreshed and comforted, and I could not but bless God, who had enabled me in some good measure to be faithful in the day past. Oh, how sweet it is to be spent and worn out for God!”
By John Piper, Future Grace